I have a dream

I have a dream Today.
                         - Martin Luther King Jr

A good motivator will always suggest you that you shall write your dreams and read it quite often as it will be your guiding light. May be I have never achieved something big as I have never dreamt about it. I always believe in hard work and try to achieve everything though my diligence. From sometime some events have shocked me and have waked me rather have made me to think. Just not think but ratiocinate positive.

I am like a mugwump about my future. I do not fear about my future as I believe that I am having the best education and putting my best effort to garner the knowledge and I do not think it was desultory. Situation is like I am at a TV game show where the host give you option to choose a door from three. My problem is that I want to choose the door after knowing what best valued thing is for me. I know in this competitive world I have limited choice. I have to choose the door and my fate (Luck) will do the rest. It is not true that I want to the richest person in the world. I wish to be boy who has put his sock on Christmas Night that Santa gives me the best gift that I can relish until next time and again Santa gives me the best one. It may be a dream but I never wanting to wake up.

Wake up Priya. Think. No, give me the answer. Everyone is eagerly waiting for it. 

Let me close my eye.

Do you saw darkness?

No, it just a ray of light, trying to touch the new tender leaf. A distinct ray of hope. Strong hope. Whatever I do I will do the best. Do I saw money also?

I have few dreams may be vague one but they are not whiff of what others are thinking. I wish to be the best innovator. I am good in thinking and planning. It is not that I want to revolutionize the research world. I see myself as one of the best scientist in the world in 10 years.

Ten years!! Are you mad? In the meantime if you do some job, do you have thought what will be you salary? You have a lower middle class family should always think about your family.

Will you stop?

Yes, I want to achieve step by step. I must be more innovative in my fifth year. If everything is right then I have two research papers by the end of this year. So I can take risk and plan my fifth year project as I wish. I have to do best in GRE and NET. 

Focus Priya.

What is your preparation? Will your mother allow going to foreign university for atleast FIVE years? Sometimes when woke up you feel anxious. You feel something is choking you. What about it?

Yes, I am doing fine. I am preparing slow but it is on the right directions. Recent incidents have put a curb on all.

I am fully focussed now. I am curtailing my feelings and giving sacrifices. I am ready to detach all.

My parents never question my decisions. I hope they will be with me.

True, emotionally presently at my ebb. I do not like attitude of my institute and friends. I feel all are against me. They impose rules and they are the ones who break for their benefit. I am always on the wrong side. Professors will tell that you should concentrate on your preparation for GRE. Then they are the ones who will scold you for bad marks. Sometime I do not understand what they want to say. I do not want to comment on the system and friends. Just add-on they have not been generous on me. I do not regret. I had never tried to run after them too.

Don't you want to run for money?

Yes, why not. But I still feel that I can make out money in this field.

Don't you have other option?

Yes, my childhood dream has been to be an IAS officer. Thanks to my mother who always reminds me about the epithets an IAS officer gets. I have good general knowledge. I love chemistry and I loved geography in my school.

I feel I can crack it. I am slowly preparing for it too.

Is it OK? Can you handle the pressure?

Why not? I want to believe in myself. I do not want to live in exaggerated world. I have to set my priorities now. First of all I have to prepare for GRE.

Muse Barron's Word List.

One final question: Where do you see yourself after five years?

I am working in established lab in field of Cancer. I am on verge of making a discovery. Currently I am thinking about my fifth year project presentation. I am quite confident about it.

Remember I had dreamt in my second that I will be working in field of cancer in my fifth year. I am going to work in this field. Dreams come true.

Dream Dream Dream